wish i could i be like the cool kids cause they seem to get in

I HOPE U ARE SMILING.
I AM IN MANIC MODE.
MANIC DOES NOT MEAN THE LITERAL MEANING.
I AM NOT SCREAMING EITHER.
IM TRYING TO SOUND ARTISTIC... OR I MEAN "ARTISTIC"
RIGHT NOW.
YOU GAVE ME A PANIC ATTACK.
I TOLD YOU TO PLAY.
YOU NEVER DO.
WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO?
WHAT DID YOU EXPECT ME TO DO?
YOU ARE TOO HARD ON ME.
THANKFULLY ONE OF US IS NOT TOO HARD ON THE OTHER.
BESIDES YOU KNOW WHEN I AM BEING OR TRYING TO BE SMART WITH YOU.
YOU KNOW ME BY NOW WOMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!

ok just kidding with the "ahhhh!!"

im skipping the mood relaxer shit i can take to calm me down cause i hate pills and i think they are a "cop out." It's true I am unstable, but even my doctor said she was unstable too though because she has her moments. I am tired of being conveyed as a weak ass person to you, even though I know now you will never believe anything I ever say again now. For a person who u saw as was only trying to "cross you" i hope you do realize now how wrong u were. I never was trying to ever cross you! I am just too simple to even be able to do that to someone as cool as u. Besides my conscious would be killing me just like randomly choosing someone I didn't even know, and it ended up being you and then like causing pain to u for no reason.

Who else do I do "baby" with?

FOR YOUR INFORMATIONS, MY MOM HAS ALREADY SEEN "KERRI" AND HAS SEEN SOME OF WHAT I HAVE SAID TO YOU TOO WHEN MAD AND WHEN HAPPY. I AM SERIOUS.

NO ONE IS CALLING ANYONE. SO DO NOT WORRY. I DO KNOW YOU ARE ASHAMED OF ME.